I was burned but I called it a lesson learned

I am the worst person on earth to remember birthdays, even my closest friends'
whatever it is, birthday shout out to the November and December babies
the closest friends that i could remember.
Ron & Ahmad the Noverm-bies. Ba who will turn 18 this 6th Dec(the Decem-by).
and to others whose birthdays happen to be in November/December.
my bad people, my bad.

My father and i don't talk as much as we used to.
i feel weird and guilty. i just made a silly mistake and
he stopped talking to me. i tried starting a conversation with him
but he tried to avoid me. well, that's life. it's unpredictable you know
and knowing that he's andropausing now makes things even worse.
i think my old man needs some time alone.


"I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home,
and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell,
and now you just have to go around checking all these different
portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.
It's exhausting." - 'Mary' in He's Just Not that into You

I'm not sure of what i am feeling.
common test this monday and i dont study that much.
i have 5 papers to sit and not even one module i feel confident of passing.

My next attachment would be in a Paediatric ward and to be honest i am so worried
and having doubts about this attachment cos i am not good with kids and definitely
not good dealing with parents of the sick kids. i have to say old people
are nice people they understand you better though they are kind of disgusting and dirty
and most of them are regulars and used to the hospital system and all and it's really easy
to deal with them. but kids i think are different and dealing with paranoid parents, worse!
they dont understand you and simply said we dont understand them cos most of us
are not parents yet. so i think there is no use in talking sense in us saying we dont understand
how it feels like being a parent. yes, we dont! any problemo??
you cant make an 18 year old virgin understand about parenthood do you??
oh another thing, if u ever admitted in the hospital and is warded in a C or B2 class
dont expect services in an A class ward cos there's a reason why
there is such classifications and you dont pay as much as the A class ward people
that's why they have extra attention and special treatments.
fuhh, that's enough of complaining, i guess.

on another note, east coast pictures uploaded on Facebook.
take a look and grab it my dear D&Ds.
gonna miss zaman though but it's okayy, we're gonna have
a big feast once his back. :)

Waking up so early to school is a norm for me now because
my class starts at freakin' 8am everyday. well, except for mondays at 9am.
but what's the diff?? my morning routine will always be staring at
the bathroom mirror for quite sometime the minute i stepped in
and 10 mins later i realised that i dont have all the time in the world to dress up.
after shower another blank stare at the wardrobe deciding what to wear for school.
but i end up wearing something simple cos school's 20mins bus ride.
then, eyeliners, mascaras, blushers.
after dressing up i tried to take as much bites as i can to fill my empty tummy
then rush off to the bus stop which is usually packed with people.
morning is always chaotic but it's all worth it when u reached school
and see all the familiar faces very early in the morning in class :)

it was nice to see you after 4 weeks mia-ing.

well, would like to say congratulations to Ms Bao who's 3 months preggy now.
wooooooooohooooooooo!!!
love it love it love it.

what i can say about school now it's like watching porn nearly everyday.
it's all about the vaginas and breasts baby yeah!!!
ouh, you're gonna hear from me soon. just so busy with sch that i abandoned
this space right here. whatever it is, you can always follow my updates on twitter
cos it's convenient to update that on my pda when i'm at sch cos we dont bring laptops to sch.

because i fall in love with that tiny thing called Ukulele.
i wanna buy one. but it'll be a waste. maybe a birthday pressie for my 19th??
*hints* <3